RIP My Friends

So many young people have passed away recently and it certainly is scary! Who's next me? you? I just can't handle one more death between Tritin, Marky, now Matt........not to mention all the other young people whom I have heard about but don't know. It's just so sad. What is wrong with the world today? Why are so many young people, who haven't even begun to experience life to the fullest, just being ripped out from under us? I am just so sad about all of this, I just don't know what to do, or how to feel.

Just here

Do you ever feel like you are just here? Nobody apreciates you, nobody loves you, nobody wants you. Your just here to do a job...to be a mom & a wife. To keep up with household responsibility, to keep up with the children and their health, Christ to wipe your husbands ass. I feel like I have lost myself sometimes like I am not Kira I am "Wife & Mother" I want to be wife and mother but I want to be Kira too! How do I get that? How can I be the best wife and mother I can be without loosing sight of who I am and what I want? My wishes, My needs, My hopes and dreams!!

On the bright note Caidynce goes back to school next weeks so my day to day schedule will be a little easier!

Boring Day

Oh man today was so boring that I just needed to come and complain about it lol. Fuck! Josh worked both jobs and I sat and entertained the kiddies all day even they got bored with me and they ditched me! haha ditched by my own the wouldn't let me play anymore lol

Oh Happy Day...

So I no longer a basics student, tonight was my last night with Ms. Wendy, and although I will miss her I am uber excited to continue learning new things. Tomorrow will be like Christmas for me, I get my second kit of goodies including a rolling suitcase to hold everything, flat iron, blow dryer, curling iron, new brushes, new heads and lots of other fun stuff.

As for the home life, it's going ok. Stressful at times, seems like the girls are always acting up at the same time, never one misbehaving and the other being good. But they are both getting so big! Madyson is talking so much these days, putting lots of sentences together, and she knows what she is talking about. Caidynce......well she's Caidynce! Smart mouthed, quick witted, and oh so smart! And ofcourse a cutie like moma lol!

Tomorrow is the last night of the fucked up schedule Josh and I have going on, He is taking a weeks Vaca and going back to his Job at Moses Brown School as Executive Chef so his hours will once again coincide with my school and work schedule and we will have a sense of normalcy again! Summer Vacation Sux!!!

That is my scoop for today!

My First Blog!

So I have never really been into doing things like this but lately I have been reading lots of people's blogs so I guess it is only fair that I put a little something out there for you to read. I don't have much to say at this point but I am sure with time I will settle right in. I am Kira a 22 year old mother/student/bartender. I am from Massachusetts, Born and raised. I have 2 beautiful daughters, Caidynce who is 4 and about to start her second year of preschool and Madyson who is 2 and is hitting the terrible twos big time, school can't come fast enough lol. I have a wonderful Husband Josh who I simply adore, I could not ask for more in a husband. I attend Rob Roy Academy and I am studying Cosmetology, I love it! On weekends I bartend weddings and other functions at the Abby Grill. I enjoy tending bar and it's a great source of extra cash but my passion is hair. I am so excited to begin the next chapter in my life and establish myself as a successful stylist, I have waited so long, or atleast what feels like so long, to go back to school and further myself as a person. I have led quite a rocky life until this point, from parents divorcing when I was little to being sexually molested at age 7 to being bounced around juvenile homes because I was a rebellious teenager who needed help, Things are finally falling into place for my family and myself and I have a bright outlook for our future success. I plan to update on this regurally and I may even post a joke from time to time.