Good Byes Suck

So I am full of more emotions than I know what to do with right now. My Baby brother and I have said our good byes, he is leaving for FL at the crack ass of dawn tomorrow to go to film school. I am so happy for him, it takes a lot of guts to do what he is doing, to just pack up and leave behind everything and everyone he knows. He definitely has more balls than I do. I know he will do well, he is destined for bigger and better things than FR has to offer him. I am so proud of him, I have always known he would grow up to be a good man, a strong man. But it is still so difficult as his big sister to watch him spread his wings and leave the nest. Growing up we were very close and have only gotten closer as we have gotten older, he's not just my baby brother he is one of my nearest and dearest, one of the few true. I still haven't completely stopped crying and he left here hours ago, it is still coming in spurts. I wish him nothing but the best, I hope he finds everything he is looking for in this life and experiences it to the fullest. I hope he knows how much I love him. ::Tears flowing again:: I feel so badly for my mother right now, I know she is happy and Oh so proud but I can also imagine how she feels, knowing how I feel as his sister, and being a mother myself I am dreading/anticipating the day I watch my babies fly. I know as he gets settled and we here from him, and he is enjoying himself and doing well with his classes it will get easier to be happy for him and harder to be sad for ourselves when he is happy. I think Friday will be a better day, knowing he has spent his first night and gotten settled, I think I will be a little happier. I am a little nervous about his trip and stuff. I dunno we'll see how it goes.